POP LO!!

and now. onto fresh helll. muahhahaha

i better not end up as a man. i might burn cmpb down if i do.

how sad. i was just beginning to like bmt life a little bit. and now im out of it.

and my hair was just beginning to grow to a not so short length. and they had to cut itt. on the weeek of my pop. on TUESDAY. now im back to botak one. i mean square one.

note to future recruits. bring EVERYTHING back on the week before pOP. i mean EVERYTHING. dont just open ur cupboard. see that its quite empty and say. hah. i think i can squeeze everything into my bag. and it'll still be quite light for my 24km route march.,

it wont be. my bag was hugeeee. like everyone else's. got even bigger with my helmet and lbv inside. thank goodness i didnt have to take public transport. i'll be fat. smelly. and everyone will pinch their nose and stare at me.

i cant remember how it feels like to have hair. cant remember how it feels like to rub my head and not feel the prickly feeling. cant remember how it feels like to sweep my fringe from my forehead.

oh how i miss you. my dear hair.

2 months. not a very long time. but enough to make me see things differently. enough to build back the mental strength that i lost since i went jc. enough to make me appreciate my parents more. and enough. to make me tell them that i do appreciate them.

i have this section mate. that signed on. his parents were getting a divorce and his mum didnt have enough money to pay for a new flat. his bro will not have enough money for uni either. so he signed on. for the money. to help his family out. he just threw 6 years of freedom away. for them.

just felt my own problems were so small after hearing that. i felt so sad for him. he told me he didnt mind army life. or not booking out. since he doesnt have a home to go to even if he did book out. made me very very grateful for everything i ahve.

and the thing is. i never heard him grumble abt his problem. he just put his best in whatever he did. to secure a spot in ocs. so he can sign on and help his family.

honestly if i were him. i dont know if i can do the same. or be as strong. he had all this personal problems outside of army. and still he doesnt complain. he just takes the bullshit life throws at him.

respect this guy man.